Song#: 10
Album 06) Wondering about Death
Name of Song: The long road back….
Underneath wonderings,
Always looking but at what,
Always sorta knowing,
About what I was not sure.
I knew I was a “different”,
A wrenching hope but never knew quite what,
It kept me going though, this endless nagging urge of mine,
To keep trying to remember my inner self.
Glimpses of truths were common,
Sadly the whole story remained aloof,
The grief of loss of who I was,
Often left me in times forgot.
Chorus
I can only look in the mirror,
If I urge to want someone to blame,
The truth is I couldn’t figure out how to die
And still remember who the hell I really am.
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There was a lifetime I knew I must remember,
Unconsciously yearning towards achievements I had then made,
I sorta knew it would resolve my endless dichotomies,
Of distant abilities that were real but couldn’t have.
It now amazes me what I did in future lifetimes,
The unconscious urge to get a body no matter what,
Looking back it would be better to choose your future,
So you can continue from where you left off in your earlier life.
Chorus
I can only look in the mirror,
If I urge to want someone to blame,
The truth is I couldn’t figure out how to die
And still remember who the hell I really am.
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After all there’s family and friends that were created,
Why should you leave them high and dry in sudden grief,
It would be smarter to plan for a new body amongst them,
So your new parents already know who the hell you are.
Chorus
I can only look in the mirror,
If I urge to want someone to blame,
The truth is I couldn’t figure out how to die
And still remember who the hell I really am.
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The words above are purely self determined futures,
You may not agree that this is something you could do,
As an artist I must put there future realities,
You never know one day you might decide to do them too.
Chorus
I can only look in the mirror,
If I urge to want someone to blame,
The truth is I couldn’t figure out how to die
And still remember who the hell I really am.
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Lest we forget you are innately just a spirit,
You’re made of love and kindness beyond this universe,
You have a mind that unconsciously became rather reactive,
To the point it clouds the thrill of who you really are.
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