David Lingabee Songs & Songwriting

Song#: 12

Album
Name of Song: I have been dying

I have been dying,
For so many years,
I have been trying,
To mend my endless tears.

Continual pain was,
Its calling card,
Abundant confusions,
Made it so hard.

I’m almost through it,
At least I’ll live,
But now so worn out,
No strength to give.

Chorus
Overwhelming so,
As you may know,
And all I feel is loss,
Why won’t it blow.
_______

As I look into my past,
So much to see,
Must find those losses,
That took all of me.

I feel those losses,
So part of me,
Must leave their grasp now,
So I can see.

So many losses,
Some big some small,
They stick together in,
One great big ball.

Chorus
Overwhelming so,
As you may know,
And all I feel is loss,
Why won’t it blow.
_______

Where do I start now,
To undo this maze,
It’s got me hellhound,
Within its rage.

They had me dying,
Of that I’m sure,
There’s no real telling,
Till I find the door.

Chorus
Overwhelming so,
As you may know,
And all I feel is loss,
Why won’t it blow.
_______

I know I’m good inside,
Although I doubt.
I can be objective though,
As I climb my route.

I sometimes feel that I’m,
Not so alone,
I want to feel them,
Right to the bone.

My urge to love them,
Becomes suddenly strong,
They match how I feel,
We’ll get along.

Chorus
Overwhelming so,
As you may know,
And all I feel is loss,
Why won’t it blow.
_______

It’s really helped me,
To voice this song,
It will be easier,
To move along.

Even though I haven’t found,
The source of loss,
At least I’ve looked within,
So it’s less the boss.

Another thing though,
I now have seen,
That sex and loss are one,
So long they’ve been.

Chorus
Overwhelming so,
As you may know,
And all I feel is loss,
Why won’t it blow.
_______

I have a long road back,
From what I didn’t know,
That I was slowly dying,
Although I seemed to grow.

My body was oh so strong,
It’s so worn out now,
The dying was parasitic on,
My earlier vow.

I vowed to live my life,
I vowed to fight,
Anything that stopped,
My fun packed plight.

Chorus
Overwhelming so,
As you may know,
And all I feel is loss,
Why won’t it blow.
_______

I have a long road back,
From what I didn’t know,
That I was slowly dying,
Although I seemed to grow.

My body was oh so strong,
It’s so worn out now,
The dying was parasitic on,
My earlier vow.

I vowed to live my life,
I vowed to fight,
Anything that stopped,
My fun packed plight.
_______

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